“I do not understand my own actions, for I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate… I can will what it right, but I cannot do it. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I do.”
OK, read it again if you must. I realize it sounds like something from the 3 stooges but it’s actually from the Bible. The apostle Paul wrote it in his letter to the Romans. I know exactly what he means. Don’t we all? We want to exercise, but we watch TV instead. We want to eat well but we buy that bag of chips anyway. We mean to stop procrastinating, but we wait until tomorrow to start. Why do we do that?
I felt SO GOOD after my week of veganism. I had more energy than I had had in just about forever. I felt stronger and thinner. My skin looked better. I was proud of myself. But I slipped back into all my old habits of processed food and Big Macs anyway.
I was telling my Handsome Hippie Hubby this and he said, “I feel the same way! I want to eat well, but I just don’t. And then I hate the way I look and feel.”
Why do we do that?!
Anyone? Anyone? Bueller? Bueller?
Well! There is an easy enough solution to this problem, we agreed. We will go on another “veggie fast.” Except this time I’m keeping cheese. I will keep it to a minimum, but I just missed cheese too much to go without it again. We are not putting a time limit on it this time, except to say, “at least one week.”
So this morning is off to a great start. Arrowhead Mills makes a puffed rice cereal that is just that: puffed rice. Nothing else. It is like mildly crunchy air. But if you add a big handful of fresh mixed berries and some soy milk it’s not so bad at all.
I also gnoshed on a piece of spelt toast. Yesterday I discovered that Meijer now sells their own line of organic whole grain breads (score another point on the “you rock!” board for Meijer). Here’s what I have to say about that…. These breads cost about $.75 a loaf more than the Meijer brand wheat or white sandwich bread. That puts them at about the same cost as any other brand of “regular” bread. But that single piece of spelt bread probably weighed as much as half a loaf of the white stuff. It was very filling, and it was so flavorful! I frequently eat 2 sandwiches at a time because I don’t feel full. I’m not sure I could finish a single one if I used this stuff! If you do the math that way, I’d eat half as much so it would actually cost less. I love things that cost less!
I’ll be heading to all my favorite foodie sites this week, and if any of you have suggestions PLEASE feel free to share! I feel a little better equipped going in this time than I did last, but still… one can only eat so many bowls of tofu scramble and lentil soup.
Oh… and, about the green slime. I confess. I’m probably going to skip it. It’s healthy and filling and easy to make but… well… yeah. Perhaps I’ll enjoy a lovely fruit smoothie. Without spinach.
What I’m really getting at, with this whole post is this:
I know that some of you run every day. Or you nearly always eat healthy. Or you clean off your kitchen counters every night no matter how tired you are. Or you always fold the laundry the minute it is dry.
Tell me, how do you keep that kind of motivation? I can do it for a little while. But eventually I take a day off. And then one day turns to two. And then a week and a month and so on. How do you look into an eternity of no bacon and not just throw in the towel? I mean, we all have the little voice in our head that says, “You know, you shouldn’t eat that.” But what actually spurs you to listen to it? Day after day after day…..
How do you get yourself to do the things you want to do and not do the things you don’t want to do which is what most of us do even though we want to do the right thing?
Ha! Paul’s got nothin’ on me when it comes to tongue twisters!